I desire a lot out of life like finding happiness, love,
money, laughter, good health, etc., etc., etc.
But I have to realize that I need to enjoy being in the moment and don’t
think too far in the future. I can’t
help it though because every time I go on facebook it seems as if someone I
know, went to school with, or seen before in school or through friends are
either getting engaged, married, celebrating their anniversary, etc. I feel so left out in love. I haven’t felt loved in a very
looooooooooooooooong time. I don’t know
if my subconscious is sending out vibes/signals that won’t allow me look for
guys after what happened to me when I was younger. (I wrote something about that situation in an
earlier post a few months back).
However, some of my close girlfriends that have known me since
elementary school says that I’m still insecure about myself and that I need to
get over this before I can find love. In
other words I need to learn to love myself and accept myself again before I can
love anyone else!!! I agree with them
and I need to get over all these issues that I have bottled up all these
years. I really want to find love this
year, however the year is almost over though.
It would be a freaking miracle that I do find love before 2014 is over. To be continued….
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