Okay, so
I’m starting to think that my secret crush and the person that has been calling
me all these years are two completely different people. Man, I’m soooo confused who could this
mysterious caller could be?!!! Especially since in one message on my home
answering machine is in Cantonese and another one is in English/with some other
foreign language. Omigosh, I got really
pissed off and upset after listening to the most recent message on my home answering machine. From what I understand after listening to the
latest message a few times that there’s this guy that said that I need to get
back from being thick to thin? He said
this word in a foreign language which I still have no idea what language that
is? But my best bet is that he wants me
to lose weight. I got sooo upset after
listening to that message because it means that there’s someone (or some guys)
that actually still likes me but won’t reveal who they are because I’m still
fat. It’s so confusing to figure out who
these callers are because it could be one caller just different group of people
calling me? Or it could be two different
callers speaking with their family or friends about me? Anyways, I’m really upset and frustrated
about this because this means that they’re ashamed to be seen with me because
of my weight. This secret admirer is
confusing because he won’t reveal himself to me yet he still calls my home
number and drives by my home in a white car flashing his headlights towards my
window in the middle of the night. It’s
really bazaar cuz it’s like the driver in the white cars knows when I’m going
to wake up in the middle of the night and purposely flash their headlights into
my window. As soon I look out the window
this driver quickly drives away yet I still don’t know how the driver knows
that I’m looking out the window though cuz I didn’t move my window blinds or
turn on the lights??? Another bazaar thing is that this mysterious caller was
talking about me with his group of friends and it sounded like they know a lot
about my life which is really scary. I mean, how the hell do you know so much
stuff about me? It’s like this
mysterious caller called a psychic or something and somehow got all the timing
down to the dot. But even if he did
called a psychic there’s no way that a psychic could’ve gotten the time down to
the dot. Especially whenever I’m
sleeping, how is it possible to know when I’m going to wake up in the middle of
the night? It’s like there’s a team of people
cuz there’s this one time when I looked out the window to figure out who the
hell this driver is and for some reason his phone lights up and he immediately
drove away. It’s like there’s someone on
standby to text the driver to hurry up and drive away? But still though how is this all possible
though? And then on Christmas day 2017 when I went to the movie theatres with
Alice and Janice I noticed this Asian man sitting nearby us in the lobby seats
before the movie began. I don’t know how
to explain it but there was something about this Asian man that was familiar
and suspicious about him? I admit this
Asian man doesn’t look like I’ve met him before. However, I have to consider the fact that
everyone looks different after high school.
I think my suspicion and intuition is actually right this time around
cuz I saw this Asian man again at the Bart station today!!! I’m still trying to figure out if this Asian
man is in my grade or is an upper classmen from my high school? (One of Janice’s
co-workers recognizes my face after we first met and she told me that she also
has a twin!!! I told Janice later after
her co-worker left that I felt hella bad that I don’t recognize her especially
since she’s an upper classmen at my high school!!! How is it possible that a senior remembers me, a freshmen at high school? I understand that my high school is small but
still there’s a lot of students at my high school compared to my middle
school.) I don’t know what to say…maybe it’s
a coincidence about running into this Asian man at the Bart station today? Weird?
Cuz let’s hypothetically say this Asian man is my secret admirer, wouldn’t
it make sense to actually have a conversation with me instead of walking off
very quickly? Whatever the situation is it’s like he knows when is the right
time to run into me and get my attention? Let’s say this Asian man is in my
grade back in high school, I would be hella surprised cuz he kinda looks a few
grades older than me. Despite what that
stereotype/saying about Asian men don’t age as fast as Asian women do(I heard
that saying a lot from other Asian women), I don’t know maybe he drank a lot of
alcohol and smoked a lot cigars when he was in his twenties? Or maybe he stresses out a lot, not enough
sleep, partied too hard, etc. I don’t
know what it is about him but he had a serious look/ or maybe a nervous look on
his face when he was sitting in the lobby sitting next to us at the movie theatre? It’s weird cuz even though I’m pretty sure I’ve
never met him before that look on his face in that moment in time looked familiar? I think it’s possible it’s someone from my
high school but it can’t be unless he doesn’t recognize me also? Looks like I need to do some detective work
and figure out who this is or at least the mysterious callers and drivers in
the white cars driving by my window in the middle of the night!!! I told my aunt about the messages on the answering
machine and the white cars driving by my window in the middle of the night and
she thinks it’s a coincidence and blew it off like it’s nothing. One of these
days I going to get evidence for my aunt to listen to. Sigh…I think she thinks I’m going crazy about
this and I’m probably am cuz nobody believes me. One of these days I will get evidence to
prove to her that I’m right.