Wednesday, December 27, 2017

So Confused…

Okay, so I’m starting to think that my secret crush and the person that has been calling me all these years are two completely different people.  Man, I’m soooo confused who could this mysterious caller could be?!!! Especially since in one message on my home answering machine is in Cantonese and another one is in English/with some other foreign language.  Omigosh, I got really pissed off and upset after listening to  the most recent message on my home answering machine.  From what I understand after listening to the latest message a few times that there’s this guy that said that I need to get back from being thick to thin?  He said this word in a foreign language which I still have no idea what language that is?  But my best bet is that he wants me to lose weight.  I got sooo upset after listening to that message because it means that there’s someone (or some guys) that actually still likes me but won’t reveal who they are because I’m still fat.  It’s so confusing to figure out who these callers are because it could be one caller just different group of people calling me?  Or it could be two different callers speaking with their family or friends about me?  Anyways, I’m really upset and frustrated about this because this means that they’re ashamed to be seen with me because of my weight.  This secret admirer is confusing because he won’t reveal himself to me yet he still calls my home number and drives by my home in a white car flashing his headlights towards my window in the middle of the night.  It’s really bazaar cuz it’s like the driver in the white cars knows when I’m going to wake up in the middle of the night and purposely flash their headlights into my window.  As soon I look out the window this driver quickly drives away yet I still don’t know how the driver knows that I’m looking out the window though cuz I didn’t move my window blinds or turn on the lights??? Another bazaar thing is that this mysterious caller was talking about me with his group of friends and it sounded like they know a lot about my life which is really scary. I mean, how the hell do you know so much stuff about me?  It’s like this mysterious caller called a psychic or something and somehow got all the timing down to the dot.  But even if he did called a psychic there’s no way that a psychic could’ve gotten the time down to the dot.  Especially whenever I’m sleeping, how is it possible to know when I’m going to wake up in the middle of the night?  It’s like there’s a team of people cuz there’s this one time when I looked out the window to figure out who the hell this driver is and for some reason his phone lights up and he immediately drove away.  It’s like there’s someone on standby to text the driver to hurry up and drive away?  But still though how is this all possible though? And then on Christmas day 2017 when I went to the movie theatres with Alice and Janice I noticed this Asian man sitting nearby us in the lobby seats before the movie began.  I don’t know how to explain it but there was something about this Asian man that was familiar and suspicious about him?  I admit this Asian man doesn’t look like I’ve met him before.  However, I have to consider the fact that everyone looks different after high school.  I think my suspicion and intuition is actually right this time around cuz I saw this Asian man again at the Bart station today!!!  I’m still trying to figure out if this Asian man is in my grade or is an upper classmen from my high school? (One of Janice’s co-workers recognizes my face after we first met and she told me that she also has a twin!!!  I told Janice later after her co-worker left that I felt hella bad that I don’t recognize her especially since she’s an upper classmen at my high school!!!  How is it possible that a  senior remembers me, a freshmen at high school?  I understand that my high school is small but still there’s a lot of students at my high school compared to my middle school.)  I don’t know what to say…maybe it’s a coincidence about running into this Asian man at the Bart station today?  Weird?  Cuz let’s hypothetically say this Asian man is my secret admirer, wouldn’t it make sense to actually have a conversation with me instead of walking off very quickly? Whatever the situation is it’s like he knows when is the right time to run into me and get my attention? Let’s say this Asian man is in my grade back in high school, I would be hella surprised cuz he kinda looks a few grades older than me.  Despite what that stereotype/saying about Asian men don’t age as fast as Asian women do(I heard that saying a lot from other Asian women), I don’t know maybe he drank a lot of alcohol and smoked a lot cigars when he was in his twenties?  Or maybe he stresses out a lot, not enough sleep, partied too hard, etc.  I don’t know what it is about him but he had a serious look/ or maybe a nervous look on his face when he was sitting in the lobby sitting next to us at the movie theatre?  It’s weird cuz even though I’m pretty sure I’ve never met him before that look on his face in that moment in time looked familiar?  I think it’s possible it’s someone from my high school but it can’t be unless he doesn’t recognize me also?  Looks like I need to do some detective work and figure out who this is or at least the mysterious callers and drivers in the white cars driving by my window in the middle of the night!!!    I told my aunt about the messages on the answering machine and the white cars driving by my window in the middle of the night and she thinks it’s a coincidence and blew it off like it’s nothing. One of these days I going to get evidence for my aunt to listen to.  Sigh…I think she thinks I’m going crazy about this and I’m probably am cuz nobody believes me.  One of these days I will get evidence to prove to her that I’m right.