I feel like crying right now because I really don’t know what the future will bring me.

I’m scared for my future, I actually get anxiety thinking about life.  Sigh, I have a lot of obstacles and disappointments in my life ever since I developed all these health issues that I’ve been diagnosed with since I was younger.  I miss the old Anita, I’m feeling frustrated that I’m stuck in life being this “new” Anita.  People who know about my health issues keep telling me that I shouldn’t put my life on hold until I get better.  For all we know that I may never get better and that I may have to accept who I am.  Sigh, I hate to say it but I think I may have to learn to love and accept myself for who I am and not what I hope to be in the future.  I wasted a large portion of my life not enjoying my youth due to these damn illnesses.  I need stop letting these health issues from interfering with my life.  I’m just sick and tired of being sick and tired all the time.